life with God is crazzzzyyy

Well everyone, I'm sorry it's been so long sense I last wrote! But I'm only going to
be able to write blogs once a week, probably just on sundays. My school is going FANTASTIC, but my schedule is extremely packed, I'm busy all day everyday, it's very intense. Kind of a spiritual boot camp. But I've made a ton of new friends, already been shaken by God, learned tons of new things, and already seen so many new aspects of God's character.
I guess I never really bloged about Niko, the leadership training program I did last weekend, but it went really well. It was honestly the hardest thing I've ever done, ever. I'm not really supposed to tell you all the details of Niko, because if any of you ever do a Niko, it will be TOTALLY ruined for you if I tell you the details. But basically its all out in the wilderness, theres alot of physical challenges, and the program is meant to stretch you. Afterall the word Niko means "to overcome". yeah but anyways God just showed me what it really meanas to love him with all the heart, sould, and STRENGTH. I've never given all my physical strength to something until now. I also had no choice but to fully rely on God and trust him alone through some of the challenges. it was a really awesome experiance. as difficult as it was I'm sooo grateful that they had us do this.

Okay, now I want to end up telling you guys more about my school, maybe I'll blog again today or tomorrow, BUT i have REALLLLLY big news to share with you guys......
but I'm gonna tell you in story form=]
So tuesday morning me and my peers were praying out some missionaries at the base staff meeting. After the prayer time I was talking to my friend Jamie, me and her were both getting pictures in our heads about us being in that position some day...being sent out as missionaries to the unreached. As I walked back to class I started praying, asking God to send me back overseas to the 2 countries I went to last spring, to open up doors, to somehow send me back soon , and to show me how i can do it. I then just started thinking of ideas, like maybe I could go after GP, or maybe I could go next year, etc.Then I just left it in God's hands. Then a few hours later I was approachd by the leader of my school and the leader of the Fall D-school. They asked if I could pray and consider going to the countries I went to during my school! they needed a 2nd person to lead the team!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Right after that bomb was dropped I went into class and I started thinking, "I'm too young, i have no experiance, etc" and as i started thinking these thoughts, the speaker in class started talking about everything I had just been thinking!!!! about fear of failure and stuff. crazzyy!! then i stepped out of class anad my friend gave me a tee shirt that had just come in from when i went overseas last spring! then that night I prayed alot and asked God about it and he kept saying yes =] then the next morning during my quiet time I prayed again and asked God and I got a vision of me running and jumping off a cliff and flying with God. A little while later I went class and the speaker played a video of a group of kids running and jumping off a cliff and flying!!!! I was like "NNOOOOOO WAYYYYY!!!!!" GO God=]
so yeah, I'm going=] Going to Thailand, i'm sure you guys know what I'm saying in between the lines. Anyways, this is a huge task to take on and a huge gift. I'm soooo excited!!!!
God is sooo good!!!!! man....this is beyond awesome, PLUS my team is a bunch of really awesome students.
yeah, so I've got quite the adventure ahead of me!!! =]